my tribe blog

I actually have been trying to put these feelings into words for a few weeks. I finally did somehow today on my tribe blog, so I'm recording them here, mostly for my own reference. And who knows maybe they will help someone else too...


I have had some pain lately from a hurt and I've tried to stay positive and always think kind thoughts when the feelings raise up and look at me. I remember that the person that showed these feelings to me is just a lonely sad person that really doesn't know how to communicate very well, and this person is good and I really do love this person. I'm learning to be better because of this how to communicate very clearly, listen, be kind, be fun, it is a good lesson for me!

This also reminds me of what an exceptional human being my husband is because he has the amazing ability to step back from hurt and insults and to see them for what they are and just move on, not holding on. Most people only know Robert's silly party side and don't really know what kind of person he really is! He is great! I strive to be more like him...thanks Rob! I have a lot of friends at varying levels of closeness, I feel really blessed to have them from internet friends, to people I see very frequently in physical life, I'm very social and love this and am also grateful for this blessing. Being open to so many people opens me up to a myriad of circumstances...very enlightening at times!

So one of my favorite spiritual teachers is Thich Nhat Hahn and his books are strewn all about my house. This morning I picked up his book Anger, and this is what I read... so beautiful!

"Turning Garbage Into Flowers

The organic gardener does not think of throwing away the garbage. She know that she needs the garbage. She is capable of transforming the garbage into compost, so that the compost can turn into lettuce, cucumbers, radishes, and flowers again. As a practitioner, you are a kind of gardener, an organic gardener.

Anger and love are both of an organic nature, and that means they both can change. Love can be transformed into hate. You know this very well. Many of us begin a relationship with great love, very intense love. So intense that we believe that, without our partner, we cannot survive. Yet if we do not practice mindfulness, it takes only one or two years for our love to be transformed into hatred. Then, in our partner's presence we have the opposite feeling, we feel terrible. It becomes impossible to live together anymore, so divorce is the only way [my words here - or the break in a friendship]. Love has been transformed into hatred; our flower has become garbage. But with the energy of mindfulness, you can look into the garbage and say, "I am not afraid. I am capable of transforming the garbage back into love."

If you see elements of garbage in you, like fear, despair, and hatred, don't panic. As a good organic gardener, a good practitioner, you can face this: "I recognize that there is garbage in me. I am going to transform this garbage into nourishing compost that can make love reappear."

While I was sleeping...

something new happened in the fiber world...I had just gone into my other life as a belly dancer full tilt about 3 years ago. I left working at the yarn store, and stopped attending meetings at my spinning guild. Not really on purpose but because I was just too busy with dance. Tribal had taken off and had swept me up in the storm!
While I was sleeping people started making some amazing new art with spinning! Chunky, textural, deliciously studded with beads and treats type yarns have come into being! I'm amazed and want to play now! I made myself some pirate yarn with red & black wool, shredded bits waste fabric from my serger from black & white pirate prints, red lace, all plied with some shinny red thread. Here's a picture, my photography skills don't do it justice though...

the etsy shop

So I finally put some yarn for sale in my Etsy shop. I'm calling it Raspberry Sorbet cause that is what the color brings to mind! It is a wool & mohair blend. One strand is more raspberry colored the other changes between a lighter raspberry & purples. There is a cute teeny tiny leaf that ended up sitting on the yarn for the picture from my Acacia tree, it's not a bug or anything like that!!!

I've been really slow about this partly because I didn't have much elbow room in my studio and finding stuff that I've stashed is sometimes difficult! Well it's really not any better yet! But my daughter moved out and I'm going to be fixing up her old room and turning it into a guest room; and you realize guests don't really need a closet! Just a bed really! So I can finally organize the stash and figure out what I'm keeping in my life that could go onto another home.
Look at what I live with...this mess...

it's kind of embarassing!

crunch time!!!

Yes I had another big belly dance weekend! I danced on Friday night at Froggy's not once but twice first with Nataraja, my fledgling troupe. And then just Ayse & I as She'enedra. You can see pictures by my friend Richard at this link.... http://www.renaissancefaire.net/froggys.htm



And then I danced by my lonesome self at Super Saturdays at the Oasis Dance Studio in Highland Saturday night. I don't know if there are any pics of that yet.

I am so behind I really have NOOOOO time whatsoever...

I still have to make 1 pair of bloomers, 4 peasant blouses & 5 or 6 red split skirts by the 20th and I have to go to Washington for 5 days! I'm feeling a bit stressed out by all this! And the drama that I spoke of before in my tribe blog, it's emotionally xhausting. I know it doesn't have to be but it doesn't help to feel like someone holds so much resentment towards me. arrrgh, especially since I've done so much for him...but I must remember flowers, flowers, flowers...no matter what.

I'm ready to teach my workshop, I know that material inside & out. But I have to make sure my music is prepared for it & I have to make sets for 2 shows in Olympia.

One is a fund raiser here are the details on that.....
BELLY DANCE HAFLA (PARTY)
SAT SEP 13
7:00-9:00pm (or 10:00)
To benefit the eagles “Save Our Building” fund
At the Eagles (top floor) 805 4th Ave E, Oly, 98506
Contact Kashani for a dance slot or more info
via www.mas-uda.com

the other will be at Great Cuisine of India on 4th street in Olympia on Sunday the 14th at 6:30 & 7:30.

I have to go to bed now!

Videos

Ok I posted some of my troupe's video cause I think it's really good. But that's only my opinion...

She'enedra at Tribal Cafe '07

She'enedra at Forbidden City